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Saturday, May 21

Lonely - Akon

Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got that one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

nice song!! (= ahhaa

haunted ;
time;8:46 PM

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Friday, May 20

haha todae was damn slack! xP so holidayish. checked a math paper.. n english paper.. the pure hist n geog ppl had their papers to check but we din. so we got to go off at 10.15!! oh ya i failed a math btw. but im happy. haha. screwed up my functional writing )= 16/30. compo on blogging got a 22/30. haiya.

oh ya rachel sim is more lobster-red than me. haa surprisingly. her sunburn a bit the lag la. ouch n my back n legs esp have been hurting like siao. n thanks to everyone.. so many ppl smacked or tapped me on my shoulders todae. like ouch laa! hahaha.

went to j8 wif dorothey janet n faith aft tt. haha went food court. nicee. my ice kachang was cool ok.

den went toa payoh sports hall to meet tong! yup it was the A div basketball finals! ahahaha. cool eh hc was in both the boys' n girls' match. the girls' match was hc vs vj. hc was like far ahead in the lead all the way. so yeah. the A div matches r like way cooler than the B div matches la. stronger n more enthu sch spirit. both hc n vj were damn united la. den for the boys' match.. it was against tj. tj was leading all the way till like the 2nd half.. den hc caught up!! yay. den it was like a damn close fight of 61-61.. den last few min liao n became v aggressive n exciting n tj was like woah. so in the end tj won )= 71-63 or sth like tt. but nvm it was a realli good game!

oh ya there was this hc girl who was like behind us. den she kept screaming la. haha. ya her cheering is screaming.. like as if she was getting raped. realli it was v v terrible. =/ den the whole place was like damn stuffy. esp tj ah wah they crammed up the whole place. oh yahh their cheers r damn nice. v action-packed as tong says. haha ya. they r indeed v v v united. den thruout the thing. zhixiong n i kept calling each other. wdv la hahha cldnt even hear anything lor so noisy. so ya cldnt find each other. oh ya den at the start saw this guy in front of me who looked damn familiar. looked lke ong jun hong. haha but wasnt sure la. so tong called him n he took out his fone so it was like eh ya shd b him. den i msged him n maluated cos it din seem like him. cos he din seem like he received my msg cos i cld see. but in the end it was him la! haiya. haha ya it was v funny.

haiya long wkend! hafnt realli planned anything yet )= how sia. i'll juz rot x) haiya realli leh dunno wad to do nvm see how. hope it wun b a terrible slacked off week again la

haunted ;
time;9:53 PM

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Thursday, May 19

juz got back from sentosa! haha quite lucky la. cos it was drizzling juz b4 i left my house in the morning. den when we reached sentosa it was bright n sunny! oh ya went wif kai xuan n rachel sim (= we went tanjong beach. laid on the deckchairs suntanning. intensity of the sun was great. ahaha. it was damn shuang lor. den we ordered pizza n fried breaded button mushrooms. v v nice! hahaha den laid down summore. n fell asleep! ya haha we all totalli fell asleep. v nice n warm. plus the music played there was quite nice la. den aft lazing around n eating chocolates.. we went down near the sea n sat there to eat grapes n potato chips. heavenly eh. den i realised i was getting realli red. laid on the sand.. den aft tt was brushing sand off my back n it was like ouch la. haiya sunburnt liao. den me n kx went down into the sea. yay. rachel was damn cute la collecting seashells for her sis. haha. den we went to wash up.. came out.. were going off liao. n it started to pour like siao! still thot we were quite lucky tt it din rain when we were suntanning. but still we got caught in the downpour. hmm ya but still managed to make our way home.

oh ya there were 2 guys lying on the sand v near the sea. hahahha n they looked like 2 corpses! hahaha i realli wanted to take foto n say itz 2 new cases of drowning. haha oops. but v funny la they werent like realli moving. but b4 i cld get my fone they got up liao.

yeah it was damn fun la. v v relaxing. n it brings back memories. same beach summore. but this time there wasnt the guy in jeans.

tmr i'll go to sch looking red. oh ya onli i got burnt. i looked into the mirror n realised tt more than 1/3 of my back is like totalli red. haiya. totalli burnt la. esp my back, shoulders n thighs. hurt like siao. i dun wanna peel =/ haiya but i got apply suntanning oil mah. ok nvm shall go apply more aloe vera gel later. actualli this isnt the worst. i looked like a grilled cow before. beef. hmm. ah nvm.

ytd nite i was in a realli bad mood. family stuff. bro juz came back frm malaysia n belw his top. mom kept nagging at me n pushing me. not literally. n tt actualli cld affect me tt much. cos i realised tt many times i make myself think tt certain things arent affecting me when they actualli do. so i juz dun seem to feel tt they r there. den when sth pushes me i'll den feel tt everything's there altogether. n itz like shit. so actualli tt lie does affect me. i don't see why you had to lie to me.

ok ow my back hurts. gtg. ahhaa prepare for my death cos of the release of the results tmr man.

haunted ;
time;6:34 PM

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Wednesday, May 18

the exams r all over!! yay. math was okok la. i din touch anything abt math at all. haiya. anw ms fu ah.. she told us abt our chem again. she said more than 2/3 of the class failed!!!! o.O oops.

went to bugis wif rach lee n kai xuan aft tt. kx wanted to go upstairs. haha as in the place called upstairs. but it was like 11+ onli. so we went bugis junction. wah a lot of static la. den bought a drink. din noe it was tt cold. ahhaa n got a brain freeze. damn pain la. anw has been quite long since i realli shopped. den the freaky salesgirl was scary. shes frenly n nice la hahha. but ah. i was paying.. den was getting back the change.. n she grabbed my hand den put the change on my hand. uhh.. ya. hahha was kinda freaked out. anw we walked for 3 whole hours! ya haha. v tiring.

we're going sentosa tmr!! yay. suntan!! shuang ok. when everyone else goes sch. hope it doesnt rain

surprisingly wad happened ytd nite isnt affecting me much. n tts gd. juz a lil disappointed n yi2 han4 la. n the worst thing is it has to be the incident of tt ... ok nvm.

ahh ok time to slack. b4 fri comes.. getting back papers.. n next week too.. lessons starting liao la! n next next week too.. lessons till thurs. 7.30am-2pm.. extra lessons.. haii. 1/4 of hols gone. ok time to slack.

haunted ;
time;3:45 PM

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ok my blood pressure juz rose la. i could feel it. the revelation of a dark hidden lie. for one month n 9 days.. the truth is finalli out. sorry to say tt i expected it.. but now im shocked to noe tt itz true.

it tells me a lot. the communication was shit. mayb the intention for not telling me is good. but it's not the way it should be.

i compare it to my sis'. 70 as compared to present day of 475. i see the light. realli. i noe where it went wrong. n i'll learn from it.

this is realli pushing me to cut off n move on. i dont know.

im very disappointed la yeah. but so wad if i go up to ur face n scream at u for lying to me? everything's over. this truth wont mean anything to us at all. but it has made me learn n realise why it never worked out.

haunted ;
time;12:19 AM

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Tuesday, May 17

tired! im gonna slp soon aft my lunch is digested. ok so i slept at 12 plus n woke up at 4 to pia bio. cos 12 plus ah.. wah i stare at my notes.. blur diao la.. cldnt even read. haha. anw it was a flop. yeah paper 2. i dun think i was tt unprepared lor. haiya mayb i was. dunno la a lot of application stuff. n suay suay a lot on transport in mammals n excretion. haha ya excretion was the one i was studying at 12 plus wif blurred vision n half shutdown mind. transport was the one i studied in class this morning. think i focussed too much on the sec 4 topics la.

oh ya the invigilator v funny. he's sum cheena tchr la dunno nv see before. hahaha v amusing. he keeps the whole bunch of strings in his shirt pocket. haha v funny. den he took out some while the rest were dangling out of his pocket. n he talk oso v cute la haha. made me keep laughing b4 the paper.

den aft tt the break.. every1 went mad la haha. post-exam mood. esp joy ah!! lynette gave her red bull in the morning. so she was like damn high la. purposely sang damn terribly like attempting to break the glass. damn funny la hahha. den paper 1 was quite easy la. 45min.. i took half the time to finish n kinda fell asleep. v fast leh. quite easy. den chem mcq ah.. everyone was rushing like siao la.

okayy last paper tmr! can slack liao la. dun think im gonna study.. emath paper 1.. i din even study for paper 2. dunno see 1st mayb i'll feel like studying ><

oh ya juz rmb this. check it out. ahhaa got it frm the sch website. =/
"Dongli 88.3 Sly School Concert
Sylvester Sim, runner up of the Singapore Idol, will be giving a live performance on 27 May 2005 (Friday) in the hall of Nanyang Girls' High School from 1.00 p.m. till 2.00 p.m.

There will also be a sale of his album and an autograph session. All NYGH students are welcome to attend.

The event is sponsored by SONY BMG music entertainment and will be hosted by 88.3 DJs Kaiying and Jiafa."

ok la haha most ppl in 4/14 say he juz makes noise. i dun realli like him la but quite neutral lor. the juniors r uh quite crazy for him la ya sum. but we're actualli realli lucky liao mah. think abt it.. how many girls out there wish to b in our place for this concert. haa. we're lucky liao la. last yr had lin jun jie too. ok la n at least itz kinda sum big or amusing thing on the last day of sch.

ok im in the holiday mood. i hafta slack these 2 weeks den itz time to pia during the hols.

oh ya n itz so irritatingg. everything's changing in the education system. n it affects us. we're the guinea pig n pioneer batch in everything la. now cos they changed the jc course for us.. den now they sae university de oso changing in 2008. which again affects us 1st. hmm mayb we do realli need a revamp! ahha. juz hope itz gd la.

ohyah the theme for talenttime or sth is er rock. haha ya they sae can interpret in any way.. den i was saying i can go there n stone! yay ahaha. haha ok. im gonna slp quite soon. damn tired. so shuang.

haunted ;
time;1:27 PM

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Monday, May 16

oops todae was slack. went to serene centre to study. haha. reached slightly b4 11.. studied till 6. onli finished 7 out of 15 chapters. haiya. o.O isnt tt 1 chapt per hour?!?!?!?! sheesh. ok la but i did the tys too. haiya. stoned too much. oh noo.

anw i was hooked on 98.7 for the whole day. starting from the morning. dan n grace were talking abt electric catfish lighting up a lightbulb. it was damn funny. den for the rest of the day tt part kept playing over n over again as their morning madness trailer. den i juz kept laughing n smiling to myself la hahaha. n the star wars tickets adv was funny too.

on the bus on the way home too. i was watching the just for laugh gags on tv mobile. den got one was damn funny la. so i kept laughing. n i was like the onli one laughing.. n summore the guy in front of me turned around to look at me cos i was laughing. hahaha. eh but it was funny wad.

serene centre mac was nice. not a lot of ppl todae. but ah. wah the 2 smgs girls were realli freaking irritating. they were at the table next to mine. dunno y la opp each othr onli still tok so loud. i listen radio oso cld hear them. dunno toking wad la they were juz polluting the place wif noise. juz 2 girls onli can b so noisy. hahahhaa. den the ascb lower sec guys n the ny sec 2 girls were all damn noisy too. but overall okok la. n there were a lot of shuai guys ok! damn distracting haha. esp the acsb de v shuai. haha. n for once i saw a shuai hwachong international sch guy. den the cj n hc de oso v shuai. haa ok.

but studied till like 3+.. den started crying hahaha. soaked 8 pages of my notes ok. haiya. den sum stuff got smudged. sum ppl saw too but aiya wdv. ok yah im weird. but im fine liao la yeah.

ok itz time to piaa. actualli bio is quite fun. seriously. ya haha. esp as compared to physics. ya to me la. yupp last ppr is e math ppr 1 on wed!! yayy den thurs no sch.. fri haf i think.. den itz a long vesak weekend! ehhh dun think my mom's dragging me to temple or sth. so yayy!! i wanna go sentosa. yay

haunted ;
time;8:05 PM

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Sunday, May 15

ahaha todae was quite slack. oh ya i slept at 3am.. den woke up at 7+am to pee.. den din go back to slp. so was quite tired. anw went out wif vince todae! ok uh he was damn gek la. hahhaa despite the fact tt hes 5cm shorter than me.. he slouches while my posture is uh naturally straight. so yah he was v gek. anw we went jurong point. wanted to watch kingdom of heaven. but wah damn gek suddenly rmb it's nc-16. hahaha. rmb cld ask my sis for help cos she was working at fish n co there.. but at 1st thot wun check 2 ics. so we tried. in the end cldnt la. she checked mine tooo n go by date. not year. n stupid vince 16 liao lar. so uh went fish n co to look for my sis. n she had to cum out n buy the tix for us cos if not the lady at the counter wld recognise us even if i was using my sis' ic this time. ahaha. so yayy!!!! i watched my first nc-16 movie ok!!! orlando bloom!! v shuai. haha.

oh ya den jurong point got this variety show hosted by kym ng n chew chor meng. forgot wad itz called. den it was going on at tt time la. competing to b the strongest guy. ahaha lift the dumbbell for the longest. den got 2 guys v v shuai!! hahaha 1 is malay summore. still thot he chinese de. n he looks like chow yun fatt. er as in zhou run fa. haha n all v muscular.

anw im gonna study at serene centre tmr!!!! i cant study at home. haiya bt means im gonna pig out all 3 meals at mac. ahaha. ok la mayb not 3 meals. ok i gtg study tonite too. haiya. anw serene centre is nicee!! (=

haunted ;
time;9:26 PM

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